Expectant, adj. – having or showing an excited feeling that something is about to happen, especially something pleasant and interesting.
What do I expect out of life? A career. A family. A passion to strive for… Sure, those are the basics, but when it comes down to it, what do I really expect in life? Now that’s a loaded question. It’s one that I’ve thought more and more about over recent triumphs and criticisms in my career as a blogger.
Expectant. This is the name that the talented abstract artist, Maria Kamara, chose after painting a sun-filled array of yellows and golds for little old me. Flattered and thankful only begin to describe the feeling I had as I unpacked the canvas Maria sent to me with a note:
“…I was inspired by the energy, optimism and confidence found in your writing and blog. The painting reflects these traits with its bright yellows and flowing composition. Obviously these traits are in you, and I hope you continue to nurture them… The name “Expectant” anticipates all the good and positivity that will come from your efforts…” – Maria
In early January, Maria sent me an email that stemmed from a New Years resolution of hers to connect with other bloggers and professionals in the industry. With a heart of gold and a spirit that roams the entire sky, Maria Kamara had no idea what she was getting herself into when she offered to paint for me. We both had no idea how inspired we would leave each other.
I had the privilege of Skyping with Maria a few weeks ago. Besides comparing the warm Charleston winter to her frigid, snow-filled Michigan temperatures, Maria and I chatted about art, experiences, and the lessons we’ve learned along the way.
The self-taught artist started her career in a different platform: music. For years, Maria sang professionally while maintaining interest in fine art, fashion, and design. “I’ve always loved to draw and sculpt. I loved fashion and interiors too but my profession at the time was very focused. Other “arts” weren’t necessarily encouraged.” It wasn’t until she was pregnant with her first child that she began painting.
“I was truly painting in earnest,” she told me. Fourteen years later, she decided to start selling her art.
“I’ve always appreciated abstract art. Even when I was in school for music, I would sneak next door to admire the fine artists’ work.” When Maria first started painting again, she started with still life drawings and then eventually evolved to an abstract artist. “I’m comfortable with the grays in life. It doesn’t have to be black or white for me.” I asked her the naive art’s question: how do you know when an abstract piece is done? She responds to me saying “You don’t, but I’m okay with that. I’m okay with something that may not be a finished thought or a finished piece.”
“I’m comfortable with the grays in life. It doesn’t have to be black or white for me.
I love hearing what inspires artists. What artists are in your home? Do you have an favorite painter?
“I love collecting vintage unknown art (the mystery of it all again!). In my own home, I have one of my photographer friend’s work as well as many vintage pieces.” She goes on to tell me about her family and how they inspire her work, as well has two of her favorite artist: Marie Cassette and Alma Woodsy Thomas.
The entire time I spoke to Maria, there was something so inspirational about her. This woman has been through it all… school, an international singing career, motherhood, and now artist. She tells me about some of her ups and downs and what she’s learned along the way.
“When I look back at my 24-year-old self, I would tell myself not accept fear in my life. It only serves to diminish us or make us feel less than others. Comparison and fear will take away any creative freedom you have if you let it. There’s enough room for all of us!”
She tells me a story about a rough critic she once received that lead her to paint overtop of a thought-out piece of hers. The next day, someone wanted to buy the original work that was now nonexistent. “Be care who you listen to,” she tells me. “You have to know when to take criticism and when to know in your heart what is right for you [or your painting]…”
Our two-hour discussion was more than just fulfilling. I left… expectant. Recently I have received some slack for a post of mine by an artist I admire. Though hurtful and discouraging, I have to remember to be expectant: to know that I’m blogging for a reason and that reason is to expand my own creative palette, as well as others’. It’s not to make money or make a career out of it, but rather to show the good in being a young 20-something and how to elevate yourself to be the best young professional/friend/chef/artist (you get the picture) that you can be.